Sharing Personal Experience
Amanae and Amanae Brainwork offer an amazing opportunity for all FOB practitioners to dive further into the unconscious stories and beliefs that hold us back from fully embodying abundance and allowing our light to shine. It also offers those who show up for the work more effective FOB brain work and potential for greater healing.
Recently I had such a profound experience with ABW I and II that I am inspired to share. It is with an impassioned longing for more playmates and a stronger community of practitioners, that I also encourage each of you to seriously consider investing yourself in this work. The playground is expansive and adaptable for all to move forward in their own time.
The process is quite intense at times, but there is always choice around what one is willing to allow. Also, as support is needed along the path, it is readily available, not only from Spirit and the many Guides who travel this journey with you, but also from amazingly skilled teachers. Arna Leshem, Pat Burdy and Jeannie Hollenbeck were all masterful facilitating the work and supporting each of the participants during the October 2011 workshop in Minnesota. I felt their unconditional love, patience and presence with me all along the way, and appreciate their ongoing insight and understanding during our time together and beyond the workshop doors. Below, I offer words of celebration and a description of my personal experience that continues to unfold.
Remembering we are precious, we are love and we are SACRED!
Only love,
Jonzy
ms.jonzy@yahoo.com
I’m inspired to share this ever flowing radiant love for myself, including my physical body, and others that has been blossoming since my self-investment in Amanae Brain Work (ABW) I and II early in October. A powerful energy co-created by the best of Frequencies of Brilliance (FOB) and the best of Amanae continues to lovingly support me in revealing and releasing blockages of deeply held unconscious beliefs that hinder my living fully in my body.
During the workshop, I discovered a walking library within, filled with voluminous stories of distrust and disgust with my body. Too fat, too tall, too awkward, too much, not feminine enough, and in summary, just not good enough. Adopted in reaction to painful challenging moments through my life, these stories had not simply floated through my mind, but instead were permanently shelved in my unconscious memory for easy access in moments of fear.
I didn’t really like these stories any more than I liked my body, so I fell into a similar pattern of trying to ignore them, just as I did with my body. I still believed them, but just tucked them away into the unconscious mind. They’d instantaneously show up when I needed a handy excuse and a distraction from the pain in challenging moments like shopping for a bathing suit, hearing others mock me for my size, being turned down for a hug from an overwhelmed parent or for a date with another who didn’t share a mutual attraction.
Even as I ventured into more personal and spiritual growth over the last decade, I continued to unconsciously exclude my physical body as part of the focus. At times where I did manage to keep it in a healthier state, I still treated my body as an outsider and criticized it for being so high maintenance and difficult to control. I completely ignored it as the amazing portal to my Divinity that I now recognize. It was as I was traveling to new and exotic places, and I was sending my luggage, my camera and my money, but I had left behind my body, the essential part of me that allowed my experience of all that I might want to travel for, take pictures of and purchase!
After opening up and allowing during ABW I and II, I’m celebrating coming to a truce with all the stories. Instead of continuing to wage war with them, I’m now choosing to sit with them, holding them in love and compassion as they express their pain: Just listening, no judgment, being with them in a pure empathic space, allowing them to flow freely. And in that flow, I am discovering that they are not the truth in my heart, and have no more power than I give them. They also do not stand alone, and instead, are part of a whole library also filled with volumes of magical love. With continued attention, they are transforming into stories of strength and endurance and gradually integrating into the flow of golden light and love that also pulsates through this body.
Likewise, I’m delighting in shifting into a new partnership with my body. I am now more regularly engaged with it, choosing dialogue that includes real listening, rather than a monologue of criticism or simply ignoring what’s going on moment to moment for my body. I’m choosing to eat more consciously and delight in pampering and giving more appreciation to my body for supporting me, even when I ignored it. Natural healing is occurring and pain from longstanding injuries is diminishing, especially in the lower half of my body. I feel lighter and more graceful and find myself dancing and allowing my body to express with the unbridled passion of children on a playground.
I’m finding a lot of beauty in this big old body as I allow life energy to flow freely through all 6 feet 2 inches of it. I have greater trust with it and allow it to express authentically. I’ve come to realize there is no distinction between this body and the gorgeous trees and beautiful sunrises and sunsets and the unlimited beauty in nature I so enjoy: They are all magnificent vehicles of Divine creativity.
As I sink further and further into this body, I experience that Divinity expressing itself more and more with ease and confidence. I show up in my relationships with others with more intention and clarity of purpose. I’m consciously choosing my response, rather than simply reacting unconsciously. I check in with my own needs first, not from selfishness, but from a true self-fullness. When I take myself into consideration first and determine what I really value, I’m in a better space to be more present with others. I’m more grounded and able to hold space without attachment, allowing for individual pathways to truth. I believe this makes me stronger as a Divine Human as well as an energy practitioner, and essential as I take my place to do what is mine to do upon the earth and beyond.
A whole new level of my Divinity is awakened and thriving as I reclaim the sacred presence of my physical body and bring it into union with the whole of me. I am thrilled to bring this alive and onto the planet in this body! Imagine the power of all light workers and all beings truly came home fully into their bodies and allowing all their intentions of love to be embodied and manifested on the planet!
arna@arna-k-leshem.com